btw, by “modern culture” i mean the whole of western civilization. it is a cancer. and it is spreading. i am a white cell fighting against this cancer. not that i really like this idea of “world peace”. that’s bullshit. nature is not necessarily peaceful. it…

i really don’t know anymore and it’s simultaneously very frightening and very, very exciting. i just wish i could disappear. i feel so god damn stuck. i have enough money to leave but then i wouldn’t have much anything anymore and would have to worry about…

it’s a bitter loneliness that stabs my weary heart who would’ve thought that emptiness could hurt so much chocolate bar wrappers empty beer cans Bukowski books late night, early morning near-silent hum a scared little boy hiding behind this grizzly beard trying to find strength but…

there’s one thing i would like to specifically have understood about me my creative output is like a faucet that runs sometimes the faucet is closed sometimes it is open sometimes the water is cold sometimes it’s hot and when it runs i let it run…

For me to be an artist, I must suffer to a certain degree or else my art suffers. It’s the dilemma I face constantly but of which I have only recently become aware of. I have been caught up in two parallel yet contradicting realities. There’s…

recording going well. last week got everything working. now i am rolling. one song per day. that’s my objective. about 60 song to record. should take 2-3 months because some of the songs are more work than others. doesn’t mean they are better or worse or…

dirty love cheap drugs fairy-tale friends invisible scars decadent worldview forever changing never complaining this beautiful misery that sleeps when tired wakes when wired eats when starving drinks to get drunk to make this living an easier swallow a volume knob to drown out the traffic…