stuck in HELL sinki for another few nights
dad is picking me up on friday afternoon and then i’m outta here
i’ve been feeling really strange since coming back here on monday
i just would like to be anywhere but here right now
i feel sick to my stomach
but i’m not sick
all food grosses me out
this morning i threw up from drinking water!
today i wanted to not be in my apartment so i went to sell some books
then i saw two movies
green zone
&
alice in wonderland
they were both horrible and made me squirm in my seat
everything is a disappointment to me these days
nothing excites me
or at least when i’m here in this shithole
and feeling like this
i also ate kebab and fries for bfast
donuts for a snack
popcorn and coke at first film
subway for dinner
the idea of eating fruit or veggies right now makes me gag
why???
i think it’s the avocado i ate yesterday or the raw figs
disgusting
i tried to enjoy perhaps my last day of city life today
i just can’t stand being in a ‘city’
people work to get money
so they can drink, fuck and buy shit they don’t need
and look like they are fuckable
and drink so they can let go
and buy shit so they can kill time
what a great way to live
it’s appalling to me
yeah i’m being negative
so what
i just can’t stand being apart of this in anyway whatsoever
just thinking about it makes me depressed as hell
a city of whores and drug addicts
a world of them
and then there’s people like me
where are the others?
time to go wallow in my misery now.
nightey night