no more

no more porn no more drugs no more animal foods no more cigarettes no more alcohol no more sodas no more bullshit no more toxic people no more excuses no more pretending no more hangovers no more blaming

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changes, changes, changes

alright. what a day. this blog is now just private for me only spent 4-5 days in cabin with cousin. good time to figure out stuff. no distractions. no computers, no phones, no books, no music, no movies, no people, no city noise, no writing, no…

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Mar 12, 2010

like most of my writings, this is partly for myself. and to remind myself of certain things. kind of like those tattoos the guy got in the movie Memento to remind him who he was. maybe i just like to make things interesting 😀 a week…

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journal entry

another dead end here i am again looking for the road that will take me nowhere but back to square one where i belong never made it too far i guess made an art out of getting lost oh what a glorious mess farewell enemies goodbye…

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honestly

honestly, my honesty is starting to get to me honestly, how i see the world is only a reflection of myself and honestly, i am the world i create and the world is me honestly honestly, my love for you is what water, air and sunlight…

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Vagabond

i was wrong about many things. I am wrong still. so wrong! I do have some good friends who really care about me. Thank you June, thank you Elias, thank you Aki, thank you Peterfor telling me things I needed to hear and making me realize…

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Compassion 101

what is compassion? for me, compassion is feeling another’s pain, really feeling it believing in somebody else when they don’t believe in themselves understanding and appreciating another’s views even if they differ from yours helping somebody feel better picking up someone who is down on their…

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Banana Island

So I have been 100% low fat raw vegan for a week now. This is my fourth day on banana island. I am eating JUST bananas. Yes they are ripe. I

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Pledge For Humanity

I no longer want to pursue pleasure at the expense of others beyond my basic needs. Until the basic needs of all my brothers and sisters are met, I will not fully allow myself to rest nor shall I expect to reach the level of happiness…

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NOW AND THE NEAR FUTURE.

Alright. On tullut selväksi mikä on plan from a bigger perspective. (see “Awe Blueprint” + “Band Rehearsal Regime for reference) Nyt tarvitaan plan, joka on se käytäntö ja myös se miten päästään eteenpäin. Lähitulevaisuuden suunnitelma siis. The “now” plan. In the end, mikä yhdistää Bill Gates,…

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The Masterplan

March = transitionbegin new lifestyle, get healthy, get fit, study, practice songs, watch movies, be alone, enjoy life and last month living alone in Helsinki April/May =* live in savitaipale with family* kuntosali* uimahalli* runnning* yoga & meditation* reading* raw vegan low fat diet* help with…

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a walking contradiction

art is my religion music and words my tools for some it’s all a science and they must think i’m a fool the funny thing is, I’m a man of science and reason when it comes to life and nature and I despise religion condemn this…

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Band Rehearsal Regimen

MONDAY – no band practice – TUESDAY – new songs – WEDNESDAY – practice through existing material * part by part, song by song * (with metronome) – THURSDAY – practice through existing material * part by part, song by song * (without metronome) – FRIDAY…

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Selfish Altruism

Readers note: Awe was my main music project at the time, we were a rock duo based in Helsinki… you can listen to some of the songs here. I quit the project to pursue my solo stuff and Peter our drummer became a hotshot lawyer. He’s…

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Feb 13, 2010

this band thing is quite a challenge. things are moving slow. i wrote down all the awe songs and potential ones and there’s about 30 of them. i’d really like to get them all recorded. our intention was to record a 5 song EP last month…

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