i wanna start drinking again
this reality shit is too much for me to handle
fuck the health and fitness crap
what difference does it make
we all die anyway
some of us just have a higher awareness than others
that is in no way a good thing
bukowski is my hero
he is the most honest and unhypocritical human being
in the history of human beingness
too bad it’s already past midnight
too tired to go to a bar
will buy beer tomorrow
celebrate my last fucking day in this craphole
i am really digging the new fionn regan album
makes everything else sound like shit in my itunes collection
that’s always a good sign
can’t wait to get started on recording
i got all these yoga, health, anti meat eating, animal rights, save the world hug your neighbours children stick flowers in your asshole bullshit books that are making me vomit right now
i should sell them but maybe i’ll just put them in a box
and burn it
i’m excited because i have my anger back
i’m better at being miserable and unhealthy
i want a beer gut
i want to see how close to death i can take myself
i want to start experimenting with death
life is meaningless
so i am convinced
we are just floating around in a pile of shit
i am good at two things
writing songs and singing them and playing them on my guitar or piano
drinking and being a crazy bastard
that’s it
i got nothing else left in me
i could also use a cigarette right about now
and a nice perky titted teenager kneeling on my bed telling me to get my ass off the computer
ugh… i’ve been watching too much porn
i feel like throwing up
i got nothing to throw
i’m a sinking ship
trying to stay afloat