Just got back from the library. I used to not like libraries because the smell of the books annoyed me. I was obsessed with not having anything unclean close to me. Now I don’t care anymore. Books I got: mostly poetry by Lorca, Neruda, Bukowski ,…

feeling horrible mentally & spiritually. It seems there are two ways for me to eat. Either I eat fruit and get sick of it and start craving junk food. Then I eat junk food and when it causes me to feel like crap I crave fruit.…

THE REAL MARKUS IS BACK. hello friends, strangers, family members, fans, enemies, nobodies, somebodies, imaginary people and whoever else may be reading this. currently listening to ryan adams’ “let it ride” (what an amazing song!!) and going through some other old favorites in my music collection…

Had a long conversation last night with a good friend I hadn’t spoken to in a long time. We exchanged some stories and I told him a bit about my current lifestyle and absolutist stance towards, among other things, intoxication of the senses, going out to…

I think the most baffling and frustrating question we get, at least for me, is “what about pleasure?”. My thoughts: I think there are two kinds of pleasure. 1) Short-term pleasure which possibly and most likely leads to unpleasure in the long run. This is the…

feeling a bit down today. watching fascinating bbc documentary series life of mammals. what an amazing show. but these shows always make me sad. I feel sorry for these animals. If they knew what we have done to their planet and ecosystem they would gang up…

Note to self: Thriving health & fitness is the ultimate pleasure This is written for myself. The “you” I’m referring to is “me”. Take what you want from it and then leave it alone. Constructive feedback/thoughts are welcome. I just thought I’d share this with you.…

Human being, human having, human doing. I really like to classify and categorize things. It helps me see things more clearly and understand the relationship between everything. There’s so much going on and so much information available that it can get pretty overwhelming if you don’t…

Through dead ends, glory is found. Last night was the nail in the coffin. My career as a solo performing singer/songwriter is over. It almost lasted for three years. In that time I recorded an album, which I am still really proud of. I also travelled…

To endlessly begin again. I tried the life of the man who works a simple job from nine to five. The man who watches movies with his girlfriend on the weekends. The man who makes enough to pay rent, buy some clothes, eat some pizza, have…

How To Always Feel Better In 12 steps 1. Take a walk 2. Drink some water 3. Deeply breathe some fresh air 4. Sit still and be quiet for awhile 5. Hot shower/bath 6. Do light yoga and stretching 7. Eat some raw fruit/veggies 8. Read…

I have met the dragon. In the last few days the world/life has seemed heavier than usual. My mind has been cluttered and full of traffic. I guess the Mew boys are right, “sometimes life isn’t easy”. It’s quite amazing how powerful our minds are at…