Woke up at 6am this morning. Went downstairs. Got the coffee going. Drank some water. Powered up the ol’ laptop that’s been humming along for 8+ years now. Sat on my saddle chair (my horse), rolled up my sleeves and got to work. Giddyap. 

The first month…

I don’t think I am going to continue with this path any longer. I just can’t do it. I realised that coaching is really not for me at all. I have no interest in dealing with other people’s problems or becoming the kind of person who…

I finished another book but because I didn’t like it, I am not going to tell you what it was or who wrote it. But I will tell you how it made me feel. I post my reviews on Good Reads and Amazon but I have…

Emptiness. 

That’s why quitting our addictions and bad habits is so difficult. They keep us stimulated and distracted. Anything to avoid that agonising feeling of loneliness and dread. 

I have tried everything. I just cannot seem to outwit the devil. I know it is there waiting for me…

I was sitting in the sauna this evening. Thinking about my addictions. And how the year has started so far. It is going pretty well. Something has changed. The way I talk to myself. It’s more positive. I give less of a fuck about trivial things.…

I read a book about using persuasion secrets of villains and I wanted to review it here but because I didn’t like the book I don’t want to mention the name of it. 

The title of the book got me interested enough to read it and while…

inner conflict

i have these two selves

the artist

and 

the entrepreneur

constant war

i have to acknowledge both, otherwise i lose the balance and then it’s neither, it’s just chaos and madness

artist is creativity… abstract… dynamic… inner
entrepreneur is order… discipline… outer

it is a mistake to think that art thrives in chaos

wrong.

art…

I’ve been experimenting with optimising my health since 2008 when I was living in Ireland and banging this irish girl who was a vegan scientist running marathons. Eventually I noticed she was eating berries for breakfast and started to ask her what this was all about. 

Before…

I started playing music from a young age. Started on piano and then drums and then guitar and then singing. I wrote my first songs when I was 15. Things progressed from there. I thought I was gonna get famous and die at 27. That’s what…

I took me a long time to really know myself and know what I want and what I need, to be at my best. There’s no point trying to be someone I am not. This doesn’t mean I cannot change and grow but I do think…

I have developed a lot of wisdom in my 35 years of existence. I have learned from failures. I have travelled to 30-40 countries and lived in about 5. I have read a lot of books on different topics and immersed myself in different ways of…

Again. God damn it. I fell of the wagon. Went too far. Too extreme. Too many things at once. I thought I was bullet proof. But the only proof I got is that I have a world of madness under the iceberg. 

But I am still alive.…