Fuck This.

I don’t think I am going to continue with this path any longer. I just can’t do it. I realised that coaching is really not for me at all. I have no interest in dealing with other people’s problems or becoming the kind of person who wants to do that. Nor do I want anyone dealing with mine. I don’t really support this idea that we have to continuously grow and develop. I think that is a great way to be unhappy and unpresent. This whole fixed mindset vs growth mindset is a false dichotomy. Mindset is irrelevant. There is nowhere to go and nothing to get out of anything. Food, water, survival. That’s all that matters.
I like my story. I don’t want to change it. We cannot change reality. I don’t believe our thoughts create anything. The world is as it is. Change happens on its own. We have no free will. I submit to the will of the gods. Ultimately, I am nothing, there is no me. It’s just shifting entity that is here to be born, breathe, consume resources and possibly reproduce and then die. There is no meaning in any of it. We are just cogs in nature’s machine. If anything we are here to defy and destroy nature.
Selling and coaching is not art. They are about manipulating people. The whole world of commerce and marketing is inherently dishonest. It’s a power game. And it’s profoundly disingenuous to pretend otherwise. Which is why I find it incredibly difficult to deal with people who are into that “Think & Grow Rich” scam. That’ all it is, one big pyramid scheme.
Music and writing. 
Burn fast and bright.
I don’t care about anything else.
Thanks for trying to help but as you can see, I am beyond anyone’s help. 
I am impossible to work with or reason with in any kind of professional sense.
Every time I wake up I have no idea who I am or what I want.
This is the life of a true artist. I am free to explore.