olen kuka olen

antakaa mun kärsiä rauhassa antakaa mun olla pimeydessä antakaa mun nauttia vapaudesta vaikka tämä vapaus on kallista antakaa mun kärsiä rauhassa perinteiset arvot ei minua kiinnosta kävelen omaa polkua mitä rakennan niin sille ei ole ohjekirjaa tai opasta voisitteko tunnustaa kuka olen syvimmissä unelmissaan voisitteko selkääni…

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rant

me: Interesting observation about the moodiness. I think i have the same. Somehow i never thought of that and no shrink has ever mentioned it. The pink elephant standing right there in the fucking room! Screens. Tech. Computers. Wifi. They are a big fucking problem. All…

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the broke as fuk phase

I remember it so clearly. I was sitting in my girlfriend’s kitchen on a sunday morning while she was still sleeping. I was drinking tea and reading a salespage for some law of attraction course on my cracked huawei phone. I was hunched over with my…

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intro?

There is a deep need in this world to take a long hard look at how we communicate with each other. And even more importantly, how we communicate with ourselves. Good communication is about good thinking. It is a form of creativity but also an awareness…

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dealing with mood swings

One of the biggest obstacles for me and causes of self-sabotage has been my mood swings. I’ve burned so many bridges so many times and destroyed so many opportunities that I often ask myself if this is some kind of sacrifice and if so, was it…

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true love

I have always been a very creative person. And extremely sensitive. When I was a young boy, I cried a lot. This made me feel weak and ashamed. Like something was wrong with me. Like I didn’t belong. I felt like an alien from another planet.…

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survival

Hello there everyone. You are reading this from the future. It is a calm autumn day here in Cologne, Germany. I am writing to you from my girlfriend’s beautiful apartment. The ceilings are high and there are many colours and cool objects everywhere. She is currently…

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book CHAPTER 2

Facebook sucks when you have no real friends. Or when you do but not really. Or when you dont really know the people you know. Or feel that they dont get you at all. You start a profile. Add some people you think you might know.…

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book CHAPTER 1

Good morning. I am at a hostel in Rotterdam. Its quite nice. They have pancakes for breakfast. I am having them with peanut butter and strawberry jam. And coffee. I feel less shitty this morning. I slept quite well. It was warm. It is now raining…

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book intro

(This began as an email to my girlfriend but I decided to not send it and instead turned it into the intro of this book. In fact this whole book ended up as a bunch of unsent letters to people I know. I was too afraid…

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Songs of Light

I am the light that guides you Through the darkness I am the joy in a baby’s eyes I am the voice in your head That says sweet things To lovers who are here to listen I am christ reborn I am the love You have…

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All shall be revealed.

I’m a musician/poet based in Amsterdam. I travel the world, live in hostels and play on the streets. My dream is to live in hotels and play in stadiums.Sometimes I pretend that I am already there.Sometimes I imagine being there and missing the times when my life was what…

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GODS

when you don’t know who you are serve the gods when you know who you are be the gods this way you will always be free and in love no more seeking and searching no more confusion and madness replace all that nonsense with a commitment…

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burned alive

secret society of one otherwise known as loneliness or skitsophrenia which i don’t even know how to spell depends on what kind of mood you are in i am the psychedelic politician christ has returned sail oceans of blood with pointless relation ships that never go…

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fantasy

to get to where you wanna go you gotta be there already from the get go success is a paradox the moment you start wanting it is the moment you stop having it what you give you give to yourself what you don’t give you lose…

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cure for confusion

Why do I always feel lost, confused, and anxious? How can I change that? Biologically. 1 Stay off sugar. 2 Sleep atleast 7 hours a day. Just after sunset. 3 Stay off caffeine. 4 Drinks lots of water. Especially when you just wake up in the…

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