Writings 2007-2025
Writings 2007-2025
Step 1. Becoming a student (learning the basics) Step 2. Becoming a warrior (discipline and self control) Step 3. Becoming a knower (patience and timing) Step. Becoming a visionary (know what you want and how to create it) The first few steps took me 30-40 years…
A mini-essay on God, War & Religion There seems to be a standoff in science between big bang theory vs steady state universe theory. And it seems to be the same stand off between god the creator (or creation itself) vs infinity which would make the…
Anxiety back. Stronger than ever. Coming to estonia was a complete disaster for my psyche it seems. All regulatory functions/rhythms gone haywire (food, sleep, breathing, exercise). Need to get back home to finland asap before this imaginary pack of lions outside my door gets me for…
Wrote this bad boy last night right before i ran into an old friend who walked by my table. Felt like a poet again. Free and miserable. His friend joined and many beers later we walked outside and it was raining so this got wet on…
Savitaipale, Finland (January 2019) #homesweethome #winter2019 #finlandnature #freshpowder #mountainman without a mountain. January, 2019. Jamming with some friends in Finland. Surviving the heavy winter. Feeling the blues, the warm glow of fire brewing and wild game stewing. After 30 years of travel, it was time to…
Been micro dosing lsd last 5 weeks. Two times per week. It’s nice on the days you take the dose but don’t really seen any benefits on the other days. Still struggling with my usual chaotic mind and mood swings. I’m sitting in my underwear typing…
August 2018. Turned down job as bellboy in 5-star hotel in Helsinki to go pursue fame in amsterdam. Sent all my equipment to friends office, thanks @derekdebonomusic ! But it was raining and cops threatened me in red light district because they thought i was competing…
I have travelled and lived in many countries. The places I have enjoyed the most have been when I’ve met cool people, many I am still friends with. I’m a magnet for crazy lost souls like me. And they are a magnet for me. Law of…
So i returned to Finland in 2017 and spent the whole year there, taking care of my dying friend (our family dog Fina). It was a very difficult year and kind of a blur. Had lots of time to read, write, walk in forests and just…
Amsterdamian summer, 2016. Got on a flixbus from London and went to see an old friend in amsterdam. For the next few months I lived in the attic of this huge empty house they were selling, outside the city. They were also shooting a movie there……
Getting ready to set sail again soon. Going to the baltics to perform and see my friends. I’m scared. But excited. And kind of scared about my excitement. But this gets me even more excited! It’s a kind of sexual creative anxiety flowing in my body…
Coming to Estonia next month to perform. Will be there pretty much the whole month of November, creating beautiful things or at least finding beauty in creating something. Y’all free on nov 25th? Come see our show. I am performking at Heldeke with some of my…
Nobody wanted to hire my crazy musician ass although I told them i would bring joy, fun and wild times to the workplace! And revolution!!! I included an exhuberant photo when everyone said that is not good to do in London. Apparently they just wanted a…
Summer 2015. Back in Finland. Home sweet home. We lived the rest of the year at my parents place in Karelia. Swimming. Sauna. Helping out with the cooking, garden, dog, cleaning. Exploring the forests and each others bodies through poetry and pornographic silence. Endless voyages of…
Released my album in feb 2015, did some radio/tv, liveshows, music vid, had people who financed it all and i still owe them. Nobody gave a shit about my album. Dead on arrival and i was impatient. I was 31 and still not famous. My right…
Gave all my stuff away and left the last of it at an airport somewhere because where we were going was +40 and monsoon season. Thailand! And the big earthquake had just hit Nepal so we couldn’t go there. I couldn’t use my right hand at…
Drinking coffee and listening to Carnivale soundtrack on spotify. What an epic show that was. Getting my archives up online so photos, videos, clips, blogs, essays, lists, lyrics, poetry, and whatever I can find on my hard drives. I’ve saved a lot but deleted some stuff…
This is the music video for my song Sweet Little Tragedy from the Dukkha album. It was directed by @[100002164374224:2048:Kasper Raidam]My thoughts on the video: it was well made and the song is good although I don’t play it anymore and haven’t for years. I…
Started studying at Tallinn University From 31 Aug 2012 to 30 Nov 2012 Studied liberal arts, had enough after 1-2 months. Went into the creative arts, womens studies, estonian nightlife, etc. Graduated from Töölön yhteiskoulu From 31 Dec 1998 to 31 Dec 2002 fun times, barely…
Putin is not a good leader. Forcing people to fight your war will never work against people defending their homes and families. If you cant inspire your own people, you are incompetent. This martial law thing is a recipe for disaster. I have friends in russia…