August 2018.
Turned down job as bellboy in 5-star hotel in Helsinki to go pursue fame in amsterdam. Sent all my equipment to friends office, thanks @derekdebonomusic ! But it was raining and cops threatened me in red light district because they thought i was competing with the whores for money although i said why not both. Go have fun with some big black mamas and then come celebrate with goldilocks and his tunes after. Everybody wins right? Wrong. “Next time we take your instruments!” they growled.
So what now. No money coming in. Life too expensive here in sin city. Friends living their lives, i felt unwanted and invisible. Bought this cashmere blazer with my last €50, left my stuff with some finnish christian sailors in rotterdam in exchange for a bible i would never read and boom. I was on a bus going to Paris. Time to take the holy pilgrimmage and walk for a month. I had nothing else left. And everything to gain.
No wife. No kids. No house. No car. No god. I was 35 and all i had were songs and dreams of making it big one day hahaa. Fuckn’ell. This is awesome! Living the dream baby i thought as i fell into a gentle happy slumber in the paris bus station with the other hobos. Broke and free, just the way we liked it.
Then i started walking and following the arrows. Used my cashmere blazer as a blanket because i didnt have any hiking gear nor food. Just a pair of flipflops and a notebook to write some lyrics on and capture the magic. Met amazing people and ate baguettes. Drank wine from the wine fountains. Made millions.
Good times
Hard times
Just follow the arrows.
And then a smile by a girl at a fountain rescuscitated me after 30km walk through the desert. THIS is what i was looking for. She and the water quenched my thirst.
In some twisted way only the gods understood, she made it all worth it and I always knew she would.
#caminodesantiago
#yellowarrows
#nothingtolose
#sleepingbeauty
#hersmile
#millionairelifestyle
#dreamersdream
Playing some guitar while waiting for laundry with friends on our holy pilgrimmage somewhere in spain. #markusnylund #june #rocknroll #vikingblues #playingguitar #singingsongs #caminodesantiago #followtheway #pathofheart #loversandfriends
Autumn 2018.
Met german girl on Camino in spain, we walked, talked, made love, walked more, talked more, about love, walked towards it or who knows maybe romance is a trap. I know what you are thinking dear reader. I can also see my patterns. But hey, there’s no manual for what I do. Doing it is the manual. Experience is my master.
She went back to Germany for work. And walking without her suddenly felt pointless so i called her from someone’s phone, hoping i wrote her number correct and said the arrows of my heart are all pointing to you. I said i want to be with you and she said of course, come to me now. Our voices shaking with excitement/fear; our bodies dripping with desire.
Got on a bus from Burgos, Spain that took 28 hours to get to Cologne, Germany. I lived with her for 3 months. Unfortunately i have lost all photos of this time except these ones. She was at work while i stayed in her beautiful apartment, keeping it clean and fending off her other suitors. Walked around the city, admiring the cathedrals. Played guitar. She cooked for me and I kept her wet and satisfied. She told me she told her mom she finally met a real man and i thought to myself “lets see how long she thinks that”. We went to parties on weekends and I quite liked the city. Dark and strange. Especially the night life. Travelled back and forth to Holland for some easy money playing shows.
For whatever reason, it didn’t work out. She wanted more. Kids and promises i couldn’t make. The excitement turned into disappointment and i could see the despair growing in her eyes. So we broke up. I left her my Dukkha album with a few tabs of acid and said “take these with someone special and then you will understand what i meant and who i am”.
A real man? I don’t think so.
A con artist? Perhaps.
Haven’t heard from her since.
#reallove #fakelove #newlove #sweetlove #darklove #dirtylove #happylove #easylove #toughlove #lustlove #godslove #lostlove #sorrylove