Nov 3, 2008

Life has gotten real. I am sitting in my Dublin home. It is cold in here. I am wearing a coat and gloves and a hat to be more warm. I am listening to The Beatles. Eating Heinz beans. Looking for work for a performing musician…

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Nov 1, 2008

I have failed. When I recorded my album Lions in the summer of 2007, I hoped that it would take off and spread on it’s own. It hasn’t done that. I feel like I have actually gone backwards. I am really making music for nobody. Nobody…

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Arms of Freedom

dav there is a romance in the cold, cold airthere is a comfort in the loneliness i barethere is a beauty in the nightmares at which i starethere is a solitude i

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Oct 29, 2008

I write to you because there is nowhere else to turn. My mind is in a bad state right now and it’s actually been like this for awhile now. So yes this is probably all coming from my emotions. Whatever. I feel like this every other…

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Oct 14, 2008

I am sitting in my room. A week ago my manager gave me a great piece of advice. He said “Imagine if you didn’t speak for three years, you kept everything to yourself. All your opinions, your darkness, your light. Instead of talking about it, you…

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See

somedays i am a lonely mani don't know anythingand i don't understandi walk along the streets like an invisible mansometimes i wanna disappe

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Oct 1, 2008

I don’t feel good today. I don’t like my life, i hate my clothes, i hate my face, i hate my songs, i just don’t like anything today. I don’t feel like doing anything. I want to drink to escape this feeling. That always helps. I…

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Supermen

i wanna be a supermani wanna save the worldi wanna destroy the bad mani wanna become more than i can i don't need to be a hero to anyone but myselfi don't need

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Energy Thieves

energy thieves enter through unlocked doorstaking us back through timebefore we used to try what is there left to doin a day that is lacking of clueswe search s

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Distance

the time we spend away from each otheris when we become truly closeso many days have passedthat i have not been able to be with you the distance between us is s

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Sep 13, 2008

Saturday morning. Everybody is sleeping in the house I am crashing at. Came to Dublin on wednesday night. All I have been doing since then has been drinking. I realized that drinking makes me really depressed. Yesterday we found a house which we are going to…

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On Your Own

people are complicatedalthough it may not always seem sopeople are educatedalthough they might not have nothing to show my oh myyou wasting my timei don't wanna

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Sep 7, 2008

I’m not the smartest guy there is but I make up for that in my humility. Yesterday I played the wedding show in England, got paid 400pounds for playing two 45minute sets. As usual, a crowd like that was more into the covers at least the…

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They

they say everything causes everythingthey say we seek for pleasure and fear sufferingthey say that life is in the growing, studying, living, learningthey say lo

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Aug 31, 2008

I write here because I have important things to say to you. For me, speaking about my thoughts is much more challenging then writing them down privately. However, how this information reaches you, is unimportant. I apologize to those that know me but have not heard…

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Aug 28, 2008

wealth – money relationships – friends – family – girlfriends – society health – physical – mental All the important areas of my life are completely fucked up. I have no money. My so called friends are scattered and i am only the outsider of all…

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Aug 24, 2008

I am in a weird fucking mood man. I am angry and just frustrated. It’s all this bullshit in my head again stirring up. Yes I am aware that it is just in the mind and body that I experience this suffering and I am beyond…

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