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when i read 1984 and brave new world in high school i knew something was off with the world around me. all the kids around me were stressed about grades and where to go in life. i knew music was…

been going to bed early recently. i mean 20-21pm. and experimenting with taping my mouth to make sure i am breathing through the nose. approaching 40 in a few months and i gotta start taking care of my health more.…

keep having these conversations with higher self and lower self. sometimes i just sit back into the seat of consciousness and watch the show unfold. the world is a crazy place. my world and the outer world (by world i mean…

hi again it’s 9:19 am, been up for a few hours. drinking tea, listening to music and reading the tibetan book of living & dying. feeling this unsettling anxiety because i am still in the midst of a 40 year…

top ‘o the morning to ya.just chillin’ at home, drinking tea and listening to Saint-Saëns. it’s been the best week of my life so far but i always say that because life just keeps getting better and better. in the…

i have a tumultous relationship with online writing. my mind wants to keep going into rabbit holes every damn paragraph. like yesterday’s post when i started writing about drumming i got into a long rant about the stiffness of modern…

actually i don’t really regret anything. sure i’ve made mistakes but in the heat of the moment, they were just choices i made. gotta trust those inner forces. even when you’re blackout drunk. had to go through all that. many…

hello reader. i am markus and this is my new internet journal. gonna keep these short and sweet. write every day if i can. not go too crazy about the editing, grammar and punctuation. just enjoy getting my thoughts out…

Been micro dosing lsd last 5 weeks. Two times per week. It’s nice on the days you take the dose but don’t really seen any benefits on the other days. Still struggling with my usual chaotic mind and mood swings.…

Getting ready to set sail again soon. Going to the baltics to perform and see my friends. I’m scared. But excited. And kind of scared about my excitement. But this gets me even more excited! It’s a kind of sexual…