when i read 1984 and brave new world in high school i knew something was off with the world around me. all the kids around me were stressed about grades and where to go in life. i knew music was my path. even wanted to quit high school but persisted. little did i know that it would take 20+ years to fully understand how strong the programming was.
but the seeds had already been planted.
before that it was the book zen guitar which introduced me to the idea that life is a blank canvas and this was also great advice for playing instruments and writing songs. and even before that it was star wars and around that time counter-culture movies like fight club and matrix. this was around ’98.
i was always the entertainment for my friends because they needed a laugh and a good time. i wrestled with bouncers and got my ass kicked a few times but i didn’t care. breaking rules and defying authority was fun, it brought joy to my existence. sure it made things a little challenging sometimes getting through high school, driver’s licences, military service and meeting girlfriend’s parents or the telemarketing jobs i worked and other shit work to buy guitars and albums and booze and books. but i pulled through and survived and sang my way through life.
the game by neil strauss opened my eyes even further. i was hit and miss with the ladies. had the looks but not always the confidence. alcohol helped but i often drank too much. i never actually put into practice what the book taught besides the mindset stuff. but it opened doors in the books and people i found through that. the whole self-help industry is basically a way to learn how to become a salesman. the pickup artist courses were all made by copywriters who jumped on a fad to take advantage of losers just like weight-loss products are for fat fucks who eat too much cake then wonder why they look like oompa loompa.
i found tony robbins and nisargadatta maharaj. listened to tony on my walks in finnish forests (i remember his \”get the edge\” audiotapes). didn’t even know what he looked like, thought he was a big black guy because of his deep husky voice. but i liked what he was saying and the energy he brought. nisargadatta’s I AM THAT was a gamechanger. i need to get that book again.
suddenly i was feeling power in my own way of being. you don’t have to do what everyone else does. not even in the music industry. i started to move away from that whole world. and went deeper into atheism, health, yoga, meditation, fitness, veganism, fruitarianism, natural hygiene and all those opened 1000 new doors in every direction. i got out of plato’s cave and wondered why nobody wanted to go with me. they were offended when confronted and bridges were burnt for good. but man, the world was beautiful outside. love is wild.
it’s been kind of a lonely path since. don’t wanna sound too disrespectful to the fine folk i have met and come across but most people don’t really want to change or go after their dreams. they just wanna laugh and get drunk and laid and paid. that’s cool if you are into that. they want to be part of the herd. the great herding culture of humanity while putin and the other non-western countries gather fake power. the only true power is the power of NOW.
change is hard because eventually you gotta go against all your \”instincts\” that are often just programming by the matrix which is run by the new world order conglemerate of bankers operating behind the scenes. they run all the shit in the west: the institutions, the governments, the media, the legislation. ALL OF IT!
covid woke up me up more than ever. i never got the jab and started to doubt \”trust the science\” and was very disappointed in almost everyone i knew who just bent over when government told them to including almost all my friends and relatives (still getting jabbed lol). yes as a methodology science is great but once a study is approved by public consensus, it has usually been corrupted and tampered with on so many levels that its no better than religion. the skeptics are supposedly against that and some of them are getting it right but this kind of reductionist materialist approach to life, truth and love is a dangerous path to follow. life is more than about statistics and data. i lost trust towards all of that and went my own way, feeling healthier and happier than ever before.
how do i get my information now?
what about experts?
you gotta do a deep study on human history and make your own conclusions. if you think something is true, spend some time looking at the people who say the opposite. not just superficially. ignore ALL mainstream news, they are all lying. find your own truth and you will discover the abolute truth, the only one there is.
most science is just ideology and even the experts don’t agree on anything. is the earth flat/level? i don’t know. is gravity real? i don’t know. do you? or are you just relying on other people to tell you what is real?
if you want power stop voting and working for others. vote with your ideas and actions. work for the gods and serve the divine muse, nobody else. ever. find people who wanna serve with you. become a souldier of peace in the army of love.
make your own money doing what you love, with people you like to be with or go it alone. become a master at something, yes that is a lifelong endeavour but it’s fun and will reward you in more ways than just financially. also become a world-class expert in all the things that interest you and then INTEGRATE them so that you are the number one expert at that integrated topic. then help others by sharing what you know by writing, speaking, coaching and creating art through novels, songs, movies and paintings. put this all together and you are in business. will it take time? yes of course. don’t expect an easy path here, this will take 10-20 years to even really know who you are, what you love and what you are willing to tolerate. some figure it out quicker but get destroyed by fame just as quick like bob dylan who has been forced into hiding since 1970.
get rid of the toxic people and toxic substances. drop ’em all. no fucks given and don’t look back. give people a chance but communicate to them clearly what your values are so they don’t get any false expectations. same with your love life. you will falter and that’s okay. believe me i know. i learned all this the hard way which might be the only way (we can still learn from others). i am 40 soon and i genuinely feel like my life is just beginning. it takes 40 good years to become an integrated superior man in our modern culture. i can finally feel my values and views coming together. i know who i am, what i want and what i need to do to make it happen. and i am stronger and more fit than i was when i was 20. that means i am a very dangerous man for the liars and fakes.
gotta hit the gym now.
i’m finally back to baseline (vegan, sober, etc). feeling aligned and connected… in an open relationship with life! planning my escape also… finland is not the place for me, not my future. too many turkeys everywhere. even some who are still stalking me. but it’s always astounding who a little truth and brutal honesty repels them away and then they want to pull you into their boohoo drama games. your true friends will always stand by you no matter what and tell you when you are not meeting your own standards and potential.
my dream is tenerife or andorra or greece.
find a good woman.
get a house on the beach.
pro-create.
make millions.
help millions.
free the turkeys.
start a revolution of TRUTH & LOVE
soar like an eagle with my eagle brothers an sisters.
what Christ always wanted but nobody has actually practiced what he preached… they followed Jesus the man,
not CHRIST the god.
CHRIST is there for anyone as a deity to worship and an avatar to inhabit (just like BUDDHA). CHRIST is inner light and power. but you still gotta do the work yourself and take care of your mind, body, heart and spirit. it all starts with your thoughts.
I truly believe that veganism is the only hope for humanity.
OVER AND OUT