Category Journal

18+ years of writings from Markus Nylund’s life. Real, raw, unfiltered. Thoughts, fragments, truths. The logbook of a working artist building from scratch and overcoming perfectionism, self-sabotage and sharing what it takes to rise back up again and again.

Jan 1, 2010

so a new decade. a new year. I made all these plans to quit this and start that for so and so long so I can achieve this and that and blablablaa. Look, the only thing I’m going to do…

Dec 18, 2009

Listening to Tchaikovsky. His music is like no other. Just finished a book by Kahlil Gibran called The Broken Wings which really moved me. I’m not a writer and don’t pretend to be. But I do love writing. Especially about…

Dec 13, 2009

It’s past midnight. My throat hurts. I’ve been in my apartment all day. The blinds have been closed since it’s dark and grey outside anyway. My phone is switched off so nobody can reach me. I’ve felt angry for the…

Dec 12, 2009

I’ve lost track of how many blogs I’ve started and deleted and then started (and deleted again). The thing is, I’m currently out of any notebooks to write in and I haven’t really been keeping much of a journal lately…

Dec 7, 2009

things I don’t particularly care for – cars – motorcycles – groups – genres – radio – tvs – magazines – newspapers – action movies – soap operas – grammy awards – christmas – fake smiles – cigarettes – cigars…

Nov 23, 2009

i just wanna break free from everything with you get away from it all get a cabin in the woods smoke a pipe shovel some snow chop some wood listen to birds sing make love get a dog ride horses…

Nov 20, 2009

(from the Peaceful Warrior movie) 3 rules of life – PARADOX Life is a mystery. Don’t waste time trying to figure it out. – HUMOR Keep your sense of humor, especially about yourself. It is a strength beyond all measure.…

Nov 19, 2009

(preparing for the new year) A new decade. The first day. 2010. January 1st. I feel good. I am full of life. I am invigorated. I want to experience the real essence of who I am and what is going…

Nov 16, 2009

Mondays are the worst for me. I’m squinting my eyes trying to see the screen of my laptop. I’m too unready for the morning to get up and find my glasses. The truth is, I know I would have to…

Nov 09, 2009

I’m sick of everything tonight. Another hangover that gets only worse everytime. I should become a full time drunk but I couldn’t afford it. and smoke cigarettes all day. Clickety clank clank sings my imaginary typewriter. I went to yoga…