Writings 2007-2025
Writings 2007-2025
The good thing about depression is that it helps me see things more clearly and refines my focus. Or at least pushes me to. Forcing me to change things (which always end up being for the better in hindsight). It’s a mad rush of inspiration too…
burn my clothes cut my hair no more pretending pretending to care change my style the way i talk change my scene learning the art of shutting the fuck up it makes no difference what we say or do we can pretend to care won’t get…
It’s one of those days when I just… wanna disappear. And start again. Somewhere far. One of those days when the way the sun shines irritates me. I can’t believe I deluded myself into thinking that “these” days are behind me. That I was doing well.…
dear someone, dear anyone wrote this for you a tuneless tune sung with a voiceless croon to make you feel less alone to make me feel more known actually it’s me who feels alone and you are just my ledge that i hold onto with white…
All animals including humans don’t instinctively like change because in the wild change is a threat. The more comfortable we are, the safer. Comfort and safety is great for relationships and probably society and happiness and health and avoiding stress and living a balanced life. Of…
(you can listen to the song and read the lyrics from the following link: ) Another song of mine that’s been floating around for 3-4 years which is when the lyrics were written but since then the song has took different forms. This is the one…
Personally, I don’t give a shit about the survival of western society or any other society, tradition or culture for that matter. I think we could do much better and that’s where our focus should lie which is unfortanetly not the case. The problems of this…
Time for a spring clean of my apartment. I’ll also pull a few complimentary dance moves (on the house) here and there if the song if good—right now it’s brilliant Turkish concert pianist Idil Biret interpreting Chopin’s “Andante spianato et grande polonaise brillante” and my feet…
It’s 4:13 am and I just finished another song! Still gotta mix it and master it when I wake up and hope to get it online by the evening and then I can celebrate my weekend after all this hard work. Did you like the last…
(you can listen to the song and read the lyrics from the following link: ) This song is about teenage romance. Or first romances. First heartbreak. First hit/fix of lust. First injection of a drug more powerful than heroin = love. Or what we thought was love…
I kind of live in an apartment within a dorm (I don’t share a room/kitchen/bathroom with anyone) and my practice room is on the bottom floor of the same building which is where I work on my skills & my songs + record them also. I…
After my good friend called me a “professional dreamer” this morning (on my previous wall post about self-doubt) I realised that what I’m actually trying to accomplish is the following (and I guess this is what my songs are really about too): To unite all dreamers,…
Started working on a new song again today. Just finished the guitars. This one is called Thinking About You. It should be ready by friday. Been also thinking about a lot of other stuff today as well. Self-doubts creeping in which is quite common for me.…
(you can listen to the song and read the lyrics from the following link: ) It started as a melody which is unusual for me. I usually write my songs based on either lyrics or a guitar/piano part. I always have lyrics lying around and also different…
Been hired (yes, money) to demolish some old bakery with my pal Jörgen and Oliver this weekend. Should be fun and I can sure use the extra cash to fund my artistic enterprise + other endeavours like… eating! Desperate times seek for desperate measures. Plus I…
Just finished recording my new song NEVERENDING WAR! It’s the best thing I’ve done so far in every way. It’s angry and catchy and wild (btw, it’s not the same version I’ve played live, that was jut an alternate version I decided to abandon because it…
The gloves are starting to come off. I’m currently reading a book called “DUMBING US DOWN : The Hidden Curriculum of Compulsory Schooling” by John Gatto and I must say it is quite eye opening. I certainly suggest this short read to anyone who is interested…
It’s a long process. So long. It almost lasts forever. Decision. Indecision. Indecisive decision. Decisive indecision. Rocky roads. Floods. Obstacle courses. Broken bones. Shattered hearts. Fantasy lands made of glass and built on sand. Soft sand. The kind you want to lay in and forget about…
rape me world with your truths and lies and i’ll scream you another lullaby lets ride this feeling like a bullet train fake our orgasms and I’ll be on my way now and then I get this urge like a fire in my heart burns finally…
it kills me inside to not know where you are to not know what you’re doing to not know what you’re thinking I could just call you and find out or knock on your door and tell you all this but instead I’ll pretend to stay…