Category Psyche

Explore the artist’s psyche: shadow work, power, flow, discipline, and presence. Mental discipline for creators, seekers, and rebels who want more. Notes on how to stay sharp while making art and walking through the gates of heaven and hell. Posts on mindset, focus, and creative discipline. Mental tools for staying sharp and steady.

two people

You gotta become two people: 1) artist 2) entrepreneur Obviously it would be idea to find someone to be the second one like a record label or manager. But until then you gotta do all the jobs. You are a…

Viking Jesus Time

Now i just gotta decide who I trust enough to give all my passwords to so I don’t delete everything and destroy all this hard work I’ve done

Worst Day of My Life

Content Warning: The following contains explicit sexual descriptions, strong language, and raw reflections on mental health. Presented unedited for authenticity. Reader discretion advised. Well what can I say. It looks like you finally found the right place. Your search is…

Developing Lazer Focus

I started this blog at the beginning of this year because I wanted to shed my old skin and begin anew. But of course the ways of the mind are clever. The old patterns creep their way back in. Patterns…

I Want To Disappear

I find it very difficult to write you. Many times I try but it all seems and feels so pointless. I am just so tired of everything and everyone (especially myself). Every xmas i feel more and more exhausted with this…

Cry For Help

Hi, I have been taking antidepressants since May 1st of this year. 20mg seronil every day. The first few months I possibly noticed some benefit, although not sure because i made other lifestyle changes as well. My depression was gone.…

Self Authoring

PAST: autobiographyPRESENT: analysis of personalityFUTURE: detailed plan for future 2 visions* if things go the way you want (life mastery)* if things don’t go the way you want (letting your bad habits get the upper hand) 2 problems for creative…