Category Journal

18+ years of writings from Markus Nylund’s life. Real, raw, unfiltered. Thoughts, fragments, truths. The logbook of a working artist building from scratch and overcoming perfectionism, self-sabotage and sharing what it takes to rise back up again and again.

Nov 27, 2008

I am once again in my depressive state. Why am I living? Listening to M83 Saturdays=Youth. Why did it turn out like this for me? I almost feel like the world would be a better place without me. I am…

Nov 26, 2008

My favorite bands of recent years: • Mew • Coldplay • Radiohead • Sigur Ros • Muse Have been listening to  a lot of M83 lately but not enough yet to put them on this list although they are quite…

Nov 24, 2008

Listening to Simple Twist Of Fate by Bob Dylan. This songs makes me feel like Jack Bauer. You know when the show (24) starts with a new season and they always wait until they show him and then when they…

Nov 23, 2008

10 New Years  resolutions for 2009 * start eating meat again * start drinking again * become indifferent on all things * start traveling again * record my second album * start a band * learn ONE by Metallica on…

Nov 22, 2008

my life is so boring. i need adventure. the people in my life are so boring and lifeless and passionless. i know there is adventure everywhere but staying home and eating vegetables is not the way to find it. fuck…

Nov 21, 2008

listening to Trentemøller “MOAN” (radioslaves remix). in bed. it is 10:16 in the morning. i have a cold. drinking jasmine tea. wearing black umbro track pants, red/black boxers. black leather bracelet, black robe. the bed is a mess. towels, coats, peanuts,…

Nov 19, 2008

Today making music has become something fun to do. It’s like a video game. Even playing an instrument is for many and even some professionals a cool skill to learn, to impress with. To feed the ego that is. Some…

Nov 18, 2008

My radiator does not work anymore. Cold house, yay! I really don’t even know what is going on with anything anymore. I am in such a strange place in my life. I really don’t know what I should be doing.…

Nov 17, 2008

I feel good today. It is 1:30pm. I am listening to Thelonious Monk. I feel jazzy. I also had to listen to some MEW because they are such an amazing band. I ate weetabix mixed with water, banana and raisins.…

Nov 12, 2008

Wonderwall When I was 12, I fell in love with the song which this post is titled after. This was 1995. It made me want to strum the acoustic guitar like I had never strummed it before (I had been…