I only feel good when i am high
everything else feels like
a waste of time
shoot your shot in the shit show
play to win and when you lose
be happy that you have even less
because less is more and more
then again, i always sucked at math
so what the hell do i know
lurking poet in my ikea ivory tower
looking for things
to get me that thrill
sober as fuck
not going so well
sipping on my lemon water
listening to Mahler
living the dream i guess
these fucking moods come and go tho
imessage my friends when it gets too wild
go to bed angry wake up feeling insane
wish someone would make a movie
of all this that i see and feel
and then all the idiots
would click their stupid buttons
follow like share subscribe
i would reap the rewards of their slave jobs
oh god and those stupid photos
of live shows where the band and audience
everyone so fucking happy it makes me sick
all that tech, cables, microphones, stages
sweaty fat fucks and dumb leftists
with their hashtags and hipster wives
you see i have all this anger
dont even know what for
just comes out of nowhere
like Leonard’s cohen’s avalanche
back in 2006 when i went to Leicester
bought songs of love and hate
then went to my rented room
played an open mic where i met
Calder and Matt and we had a blast
got high as fuck and i was happier than ever
without a care in the world as we did coke
in matt’s car between sets and listening to
his shitty techno from luxemburg but i was just happy
that i met these crazy fucks who i still cherish
matt has disappeared tho, he got back on heroin
and Calder pumped out a bunch of kids
still singing and writing tho
i got no heroin, no kid, no nothing
just a bunch of songs that i honestly
dont quite know what to do with
what if i die before anyone ever hears them
that is my biggest fear
that is why i cannot get high anymore
because when i am high
i feel too good and need nothing
high or happy or whatever its all the same
a poet needs his anger and hunger
to fuel these words
to come out and infuse themselves
in melodies and drum solos and synth riffs
nothing else matters now
get your songs out there
stop fucking around
stop looking for cheap thrills
you will get your kicks
when they sing your songs
over and out