I
Well so much for being vegan and saving the world. It never works for me long term. Just cant eat potatoes and bananas and rice every day. Get really sick of it and i start hating humanity and become really depressed and angry and righteous and isolated. And i dont have time, patience or money for juicing and all that detox bullshit that probably doesnt even work. Morality is all a mind game.is truth relative? I dont fucking know. Thought i was gonna be vegan for the rest of my life and inspire everyone to also go vegan. Was gonna buy an expensive blender. Who am i kidding. Aint gonna happen. Cool idea tho. Also was getting deep into all the spiritual woowoo conspiracy theory truther self help bullshit (its all propaganda). Done with it all.
II
From now on just reading fiction and watching movies/shows, listening to albums. Yesterday cleaned my apartment and knew that another self journey/experiment has come to its end and tomorrow i will wake up and be someone else. Also decided to move sofa to a different wall. And going through cds/books/clothes, lots of stuff to give away. So bingeing now on junk food and Kenny fucking Powers (eastbound & down). Spent €100 at the supermarket. Mostly frozen food and big box of cocacola (no fruits/veg lol). Didnt buy coffee or beer altho wanted to. I wanna start smoking cigarettes again like all the cool people. Or maybe a pipe? Hahaa. Fucknhell markus you crazy fuck.
III
Finished my book of poetry/shortstories which i’m quite proud of. gonna type it out on computer and send manuscript to publishers. Its called “yodels in the canyons”. Still planning to travel the world starting may. Not sure where yet. Guitar, backpack, notebook. Go where the road takes me. Meet amazing people. Play my songs. 2am conversations and epic jam sessions.
IV
These photos from winter wonderlands, walking around on the frozen lake and islands you can only go to with boat in summer. Reading game of thrones book 3. Playing guitar, working hard on my songs. Nothing can get in the way of that which is why all these ideologies/diets/methods never stand a chance. Gotta create street show. Originals, covers etc. Have no friends where i live so gets a bit lonely sometimes but what the hell. Every month i am someone else. Dont wanna commit to anything but being open and creative and fully alive, every moment.
V
How are you doing? write me or comment if u want. I know i know i am sounding bit crazy but i love it. Every artist worth their salt is in love with their own madness. I create, therefore i am. Love is wild. Markus