I cannot associate with you anymore.
Unless I am in this lowlife sewer rat vibe, I cannot relate to you at all and it is painful to watch someone do this to themselves and not see that they are choosing it. You just make me feel even shittier and suck me into your filthy sewer rat existence. NO THANKS! You are a demonic force.
I want to heal and be happy. That is part of my creative work.
And vision for the future.
You clearly don’t want that.
You are toxic when in this current state. And you never evolve.
Same old stupid beliefs and ideas and opinions. You have become boring and predictable.
It’s quite pathetic. That is why you are bored and feel pathetic.
Nobody wants to associate with someone like that.
And there is nothing glamourous about it. Nor funny.
You are not an artist. Just a loser who has given up on life. Unwilling to drop their victim boohoo story so keep repeating it in endless negative loop.
Please don’t ever contact me again and I will do the same.
We just bring out the worst in each other. Toxic sewer rats.
Not good for anyone. But you just wanna stay there.
That said, I wish you the best with your running, poetry, catholic, sobriety, health, etc.
All that stuff is positive. YOU CAN HAVE IT ALL. And you will if you are willing to open yourself
and have the courage to change. Otherwise you will remain a sewer rat.
Going to osasto is a sign that you are going in the wrong direction.You are addicted to being a tyrant. You are afraid of the desert. You cannot handle the wilderness of thought, emotion, feeling, memory and instead numb yourself with pills and mindless entertainment. If you wanna be a true poet and mystic, gotta embrace the joy, the light, the love. There is no love to your writing. It’s all pain because that is your comfort zone. You are a coward.
The gods are communicating with you. Screaming and shouting.
But you wont listen.
Change everything
or continue this path and look where you are.
All the best!
MN