Feeling a bit shaky this morning. Listening to jazz and living as if today is all I have. All my identities at war with each other. Fuck them. Let the music take me away. Follow it with my thought symbols. I love the drum sounds in jazz. So much dynamics. The musicians are so masterful. But I also like the melody and groove of a good pop tune. When these elements are combined, there is no higher art form. I need to step away for a bit, otherwise too much connection and social media and all that gets me a bit unhinged. I have been cycling the polarities for many decades. And people who have known me for longer and seen my extremes wonder when I am gonna change or something. Well, I will let you in on a little secret… I love this shit! Haha. Why would I change? This is what fuels my creativity. And there is nothing higher than that in this world. When you lack creativity, life becomes dull. Creativity is my superpower. The one thing where I feel confident in. I suck at everything else. Especially mechanical stuff like driving, hammers, nails and building houses. Don’t ever hire me to build you anything except songs. My nails are notes, my hammer and tools are my instruments. I create metropolitan sound worlds. My lyrics are like maps. Go this way. Avoid that way. Sometimes riddles and clues to keep you sharp and prevent abhorrent creatures from following me. The problem is when I get too attached or over excited about my discoveries. I want to stay. I want home. I want family. I want to just rest and feel like every day is not this fucking war. And so I rest for awhile. I laugh and play with the other children. Go to sauna with relatives and talk about the economy or some other meaningless bullshit. Wine and dine with the people who keep this society going. If the functioning of this modern human system was up to me, everything would crash within a week. All man-made systems and structures would fail. There would be chaos and anarchy running rampant across the world until eventually populations would dwindle, new mercenary bandits would gather resources and because Fallen humans are so obsessed with greed, it would be dog eat dog. Would love prevail? Or do we first need the kind of infrastructure we have now to enable a peaceful world? I don’t know but I think less people would help. When our resources to sustain life are scarse, this causes discord in the human mind which then diminishes spiritual energy flow. Human starving is human killing. But without hospitals and weapons companies and pharmaceuticals, humans wouldn’t over breed anymroe. Nature will quietly get back in control like it does of every other species. Wildlife will start flourishing more. Predators. Air will be cleaner, humans will be healthier. The wise ones will gravitate towards the tropics again. Back to where we belong. Eat fruit. Make love in the sunshine. Centuries and milleniums will go by and this technopolis will be a fading history. Earth will rejoice. A new evolution of humans will emerge that is highly advanced, combining technological ingenuity with synergetic societies co-existing within natural habitats. In other words, the opposite of what we have now. The earth will be green again, the oceans will rejoice. There will be superflowers and fruits growing through abandoned skyscrapers and happy monkeys jerking off to lions mating with bears, giving birth to giant cuddle monster predators. There will be cataclysmic storms and mass extinctions now and then. But that is all part of the game. Sometimes all we need is a good disease to get things back in order. Gotta trust nature. Gotta trust our bodies. We are nature! Fuck modern society. Feel the spirit calling for you within and in the forests. In my songs, in my writings. I am just a vessel. Like you. We are messengers. Step away from the city when you need to remind yourself what we are beyond the jewish mind control. The books, art and other forms of escapism will only get you so far. Soviet bloc apartments are cages for human rats experiments. Thanks but no thanks.
“New Pioneers” painting by Mark Henson
04/28/2022