say what you mean
or don’t say anything
we all need more light and love
so give everything
but never give up
just need that one song
to make it rain from the heavens
to pay my god damn rent
i would kill the sun
to see you dance again
under the moonlight
free the wild spirits
i just realized today
that all my friends are gonna die
because they don’t know how to think
they are caught in this crazy world
where the only thing that matters is profit
so even basic things like
quitting smoking or quitting meat
become this epic climbs
against everyone you know
man i wish i was taught how to think
early on in life
so i wouldn’t half to spend half my life
unthinking all this crap in my head
i still drink cocacola as if it doesn’t matter
i still say things to people
as if my words don’t matter
i have these dark terrible days
when i’m so lost in my head and emotions
i go under the covers and hope it goes away
as if i didn’t know what is really going on
next year is a new decade
i am already living like it’s a new me
where i try to say what mean
or not say anything
living this recluse lifestyle
because everytime i go back into the world
i say all the wrong things
i try to be honest but i get too drunk
and then say stupid shit
attract idiots scumbags around me
and then my real friends wonder
why the hell i do that
what the hell is wrong with me
why you keep deleting all your stuff mister markus
i dont fucking know man
i’m just an idiot musician genius
i got all the skills and songs
but my identitfy has been blown to shreds
in the inner minefields
all the acid and the travel and the books
everyday is a new paradigm
but that is a lie
because i am still basically interested in the same stuff
as i always was
now just gotta integrate it all
compose a beautiful song
start performing again
walk on stage as if it’s the first time
tell me stories, sing my songs
just do it
eat plants
run in forests
talk to people
read books
watch great films
listen to music on my hifi system
sleep well and make sure i am in a good place with my mind
meditate and chant to stay calm
keep learning and investigating things
there’s no secret answer except maybe the path and the process
you gotta follow yours
seek clarity about what is happening and what works
avoid harming yourself and others
we are alive this once
so minaswell live long and healthy
create things that last
that help people long term
not just escape pop bubblegum stuff
write a song that plants seeds
and explodes later
i dunno
just live your life
move towards what you want
and away from what you dont
we all need light and love
give everything
but never give up