monday morning. just had my morning black tea with motherswort and tulsi herbs. after that i have a big decaf. lots of sugar in both. since the packages are running low i dont expect this habit to continue longer than a week. after that quitting caffeine for good and will replace with big 1000cal smoothie in the morning with fruit and sugar. then in afternoon might make a hot drink with herbs and some lemon/lime, ginger, etc. i want to simplify my diet to the bare essentials.

on chapter 8 of of durianrider’s epic ebook Carb the F**k Up. reading a chapter per day every morning. i really like his attitude and approach to nutrition, fitness, health and veganism. many people don’t resinate with him and he’s been accused of all kinds of stuff. not sure if any of it is true nor do i really care. thinking about joining his private fb group which costs $250 for lifetime membership. i want to surround myself with winners!

i think i will turn this blog into a book. my ultimate goal in next 3 years is to get one million youtube subscribers which is S.M.A.R.T –> which is an acronym that means Specific, Measurable, Actionable, Realistic and Timebound. i never used this approach to goal setting before but i also was getting mixed results so time to try something new. and also i never really HAD a clear goal that met the criteria. i just wanted ambivalent things like mastery and success which don’t really mean that much unless clearly defined although i am still pursuing both. but they are more long term goals that will continue until i die.

i broke down this SMART goal into milestones. and the first is to write 100 posts on this blog. this will get me going in the right direction. if i continue to do this every day like i have done for the first 2 weeks since its inception last month, i should meet that goal by early may according to my math. then publish them into a book.

next milestone is first 100 youtube vids which i will already start working on soon. no point even to concentrate on the subscribers until i can actually prove to myself that i can create the content and get in the flow of that even if i suck at first. then we can start building the audience when we have some raw data to work with regarding what works and what doesn’t. i’m not entirely sure yet if i will just make music vids or talk about other stuff too that i am deeply passionate about like on this blog. i am leaning towards the latter even though all the gurus say it’s wrong. apparently you should focus on one thing. bullshit.

anyways, i better continue my day now. trying to write these posts in the morning otherwise i forget and a thousand things get in the way and then it’s evening and i remember that i forgot to write. this happened last few days (weekend). i work monday to friday on music, fitness/gym, meditation but writing is every single day. this is crucial.

but if i miss a day here and there, i’m not gonna be too hard on myself like in the past. also been going to bed again a bit too late or napping too long in the afternoon which prevents me from being sleepy at 20-21. last night i didn’t fall asleep until after 1am but set the alarm for 7am to make sure i don’t sleep in. i still have 2+ months to get to my goal of LIGHTS OUT + DEVICES OFF between 21-5. body needs to be in deep sleep between 22pm and 2am for the most powerful healing. is that true? i don’t know but it’s a truth i choose to believe as i create my dream character in this dreamworld.

and also need to get rid of the over fats in diet. eating nachos, hummus and sundried tomatoes still albeit minimally. not gonna buy these anymore because they have oils. so after this week things will again go to a whole new level. still gonna eat nuts, seeds, olives and whole foods with fat. but gotta go easy on them too to make sure the fats stay low and carbs stay high. otherwise we pay the price.

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