Fuck this shit.
Tried it all, nothing helps or works and then I just feel even worse. All that woowoo meditation, breathing, health food, self help, social media feel good new age kumbaya blablablalaa. FUCK IT ALL!!!
The best medicine for me:
Bukowski books
Bob Dylan 60s music (bootleg series vol 1-4 is amazing)
Wine
Cigs
Coffee
Writing poetry
Playing guitar
Watching old movies from 80s, 90s, etc…
Everything else feels like chaos and noise
I have it all but i dont want any of it
GOD DAMN IT
I dont wanna change.
I wanna meet a girl who gets this
Sorry/thanks.
