Everything you see is actually the past (from previous thoughts, beliefs, choices, decisions, etc). It is in the nature of the mind to produce anxiety so you are ready for danger. The mind creates problems so it can solve them and then feel good about itself. And then create a problem out of that.
This is how humans survived in the jungle. Nothing’s changed. From the perspective of mind, there is no free will. You are a slave to your next thoughts. Unless… You choose the thoughts and learn to discipline your mind. Now and then you can let it run loose. But not always. You must train it. Focus. Discipline. Mastery.
Its the most difficult work there is but if you dont take this seriously you will feel like you do now (up and down rollercoaster) no matter what happens in the external world. You cannot fix your inner world with outer things.
I struggle(d) a lot with my negative thoughts, anxiety, depression, etc. But that is all in the past. And it created what i have NOW so there must’ve been some beautiful angels on my side all this time.
Life is beautiful. You are free. Your breathing/blinking is evidence that Love Is Real. Love Is Life.
