Hey man. Finally joined your membership last weekend, when I turned 40.
It only took me 1.5 years to pull the trigger on this.
For 5 days was doing well, quit everything at once. Maybe too much.
Going through the videos. The worst headache for 2 days, no painkillers.
Then it got easier few days and I thought I got this.
But really struggling today. Day 6. Just been eating some oranges, lettuce, walnuts and oatmeal porridge and white jasmine rice.
Had a baked sweet potato last night.
Gotta find a more balanced approach, keep going to the extremes.
Not good for my mental health. Ego takes control.
Then I binge again and back to rock bottom.
Eating plain white rice now. Bought a bunch of fruit and veggies.
Invested in premium blender and a juicer.
Yet all I want to eat is pepperoni pizza and junk food.
I have also been doing this for 15 years.
Maybe balanced omnivore is better for me right now. (Always been fluctuating from doubting vegan to committed vegan but I am also “bipolar” so my plans and visions can change very quick… artistic temperament). Seems like some rye bread, ghee butter and eggs would be okay.
I don’t even know. Can’t find my why.
Just wanna stay alive so I can make music and enjoy life.
The world and humanity is beyond saving.
Feel hungry, lonely and depressed. Completely worthless.
Wanted to write earlier to just say thanks.
Markus
PS. Taking 6 month break from social media. For some reason I thought your forum is outside fb. That would be great. There is just the bulletin board. Check out skool.com might be good for you. Anyways, I am not good with groups and communities (as you have seen), my thoughts and ideas are way too intense and complex for most people.