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For almost 40 years I have been brainwashed to believe in a certain way of life. Somewhere along the way, I started questioning these ways because when I looked around, I saw most people as confused, bloated, inflamed, ignorant, addicted, frustrated, reactionary, superficial, fat, bitter, lazy, and dumb. I wasn’t sure if they were like this willingly or was it something in the water. Something was not right.
I knew I had to find another way to live in this world and decided early on in my life that I don’t want to become one of these “most” people. I would rather die. What I didn’t know is how difficult things would get. I had to deprogram myself from all the garbage beliefs stuck in my head that were governing all my choices. The way we eat. The way we think. The way we communicate. The way we move. The way we learn. The way we work. Even the way we breathe. It was all profoundly wrong and extremely detrimental not only to us as individuals, but also to our planet. It’s like I was part of a cult and I suddenly wanted out. Easier said than done! Like that classic song goes, you can check out any time you like but you can never leave…
So I started on my own path when I was about 15 and haven’t really looked back since. It has been lonely as hell sometimes and certainly taken me to the edges of sanity. A few times I have been close to giving up and giving in to just live like everyone else. But once you go far enough, eventually you reach a point and cross a line of no return. You can get caught in between two worlds, not really here nor there. Or even worse, feel like there is nothing left and all hope is gone so you kill yourself. I believe that is the only reason anyone ever commits suicide. I’ve been at that point many times but somehow I survived. Or the parts of me did that mattered. Although scary, it’s also been immensely rewarding and exciting to live this way, not really knowing what will happen next. I like to keep things open in case inspiration wants to crash the party. So I just offed myself digitally. Sometimes for fun.
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