Yesterday I did my first instagram live. And anyways, getting more into all this social media because I finally understood what all this is. My songs and website are my world. But all the other platforms are a place where people go to connect and it’s more about the raw connection than some static art piece or something. I dunno. I think that’s where I got it wrong before and I felt like a slave. Like you can walk into a bar, any bar or shopping mall or airport or anywhere and you can look for some validation or something. Why won’t they notice me. Why am I here. Etc etc. Or you can just be who you are and brighten up the place! Bring some life to the party. Ask good questions. Dance to songs that move you. Be happy and smile and listen to others. Put on a show! Okay, I might not be some social master or anything but enjoy it as long as it doesn’t consume me. It’s all about input and output. Not everyone is an artist and likes to create. I’m an attention whore and that is what drives me to express myself (this all comes from a place of insecurity and the need to be loved). I have a little bit of a crush on Dua Lipa. She is amazing. The way she sings and looks and poses and wears adidas sweatpants with high heels. I just looked at her wikipedia page. She’s from Kosovo. She’s 24. One day I will see her somewhere and go talk to her. Maybe we will fall in love and have babies (or at least practice and pretend). Who knows. Well, I better eat some bananas and hit the gym.
