envy

there’s a little envy in me
but I can’t get to it you see
just like I can’t get to you
the air that you breathe
the eyes that see you
the clothes that wrap around your body
your glowing presence
and here I am with nothing
but my growing discomfort
at living life without you
so envious I am
to the man I could’ve become
the one who had never known you
the one who could not be a silly little saint
the one who would’ve been all lies and fake
but no
there you are
here I am
the setting sun
and the gleaming star
fading into one
through a mindless maze
we call love
I am envious of the light
the blocks your path
and takes you astray
lost in the wilderness
like a bear cub
sometimes my soul is giving up
but only for you
because all these naked monsters of beauty
speak nothing to the real essence
of what I am to become
what you make me feel
when we are alone at night
in each other’s empty arms
when our vacant lips
tremble into a pale oblivion
you wait for me
forever if you must
because my promise
is an everlasting stardust
that falls upon
your face when you steal me
when you keep me
when you ditch me
when you just know
that we will build
our own little empire
in the middle of nowhere
behind the mountains of