Started a band called Sunlight Heart in 2013 while living in Tallinn, Estonia. These epic photos were from our first shows (which we recorded also) and taken by my friend Niina Rostovtseva who is one of the most beautiful women I have ever seen/met. The songs we played were mostly from my second solo album Nobody Land (synth prog rock). Lots of potential with great musicians…
But I was struggling a lot with depression and bipolar/borderline issues at the time. It was still before the breakthroughs i would make on the spiritual path. I hadn’t even taken acid yet. If you have never tried LSD you pretty much understanding nothing. You will agree with me when you’ve experienced it (proper trip not some club bullshit when you are drunk or microdosing kiddie pool 1st base cotton candy shit and fluffcakery, i mean the full monty). Anyways, great band, on our way… But mister markus fucked it all up, lost interest, always wanting more, sabotage, etc etc. Nobody can keep up because my levels moods personas change rapidly and spontaneously. This “world” is not built for madness. This world IS madness. There is something beyond the known…
So I just wanted to do my own thing with my music. Regrettably our incredible guitar player Martin Matt also took his own life shortly after… Life goes on, i guess. He was one of the best guitar players i have ever heard.
Johan Petti bass
Juki Laanesaar drums
Martin Matt guitar
Markus voc/piano/guitar
Might release the audio at some point…
(Martin is especially on fire on the shows as his father died previous night and i told him to just play what you feel, let it all come through)
Fuck i wish i could’ve done more for him…
God damn it, still kills me.