Well university didnt last long. I dont play well with teachers and groups. But met a lot of cool people there and got a generous student loan from Mother Finland i spent on a jacket i still wear. Found myself at Lost Continent (yes it was called that) which was a bar right beside the campus. Became friends with the owner/manager and he asked me to perform there. So i played my sad songs for dirty lovers and did shots with russian mafia. I still remember performing Problems for the first time (published few years with my vicevoids alter-ego). Guess this was a different kind of school. Lived in estonia for 3 years and got a dual PhD in Lust Love.
Sept 28
This is the coat I bought and still have and wear. And my beautiful friend @johannataiger took those first 3 shots. Bang bang shot me down, bang bang hit the ground. The other photos are from early estonian performances end of 2012 by other photographers. Just getting settled into my new life in a new place, meeting new friends and partying hard in the old town and student parties. I was supposed to quit music or at least take a break but the songs were calling for me and i could not resist. There was a film school beside the uni. Some people asked if i wanna make a music video with them… Will share that tomorrow. Gonna play guitar now and watch 80s movies. Good night
Sept 29
I know what you’re thinking. Why is this guy sharing all these photos of himself? Because its instagram sweetcheeks! This is what we do here. And i’m an ARTIST. Yeah thats right. But in all honesty i have all this content archived and i am sharing it on all the platforms in case i lose them or something (photos, vids, blogs, songs). Anyways, this is mr. Green at euphoria on first photo. Met my good friend @jonathanflacklive there who was running the place. Miss u man. Played at the student parties… Wild times.
Sept 29
Some behind the scenes shots from Doors vid, december 2012. Cold as fuk and that is hard for outdoor shooting because my fingers would freeze. It was like -20 and we were shooting on the beach in pirita. It was the first time i was involved in making a music video. With good people too but i was difficult. Sorry. Thanks
Sept 29
Markus Nylund – Doors (Official Music Video)
* Back online due to unpopular demand. This music video was made in December, 2012 by students from Baltic Film School. It was really cold that day. Filmed in Tallinn, Estonia. Fun times. Oh and Ninni Poijärvi played the fiddles on the recording (the song is from my first album Lions which you can find on streaming platforms). The actors in the video are Robert Linna (from elephants of neptune) and the beautiful Lana Vatsel.
Sept 30
So i started looking for work. And music is the only thing i am any good at. Started playing the restaurants and bars. The year is now 2013. Got paid good considering estonia was way less expensive than Finland. Had enough for rent, food and fun. These photos are from XX Sajand which became one of my main spots where i performed my heartbreak rocknroll guitar poetry. Met some very amazing people there who i am still friends with. Beyond friendship. Few of these photos were edited by the wonder-full Okeiko but i’ll let you figure out which ones. MN
Oct 02
We are now in spring 2013. Performing solo again. There is a liberation in that. And better money. Got a haircut. Have always had different hairstyles since a kid. I like to explore and experiment with different looks. How we look is not about fashion (for me) but about expressing ourselves. Do what you want. Fuck the rules and trends.
Oct 02
These were from shows I played at the music venue Von Khahl in Tallinn, Estonia. Was writing a lot of new songs too and living in the student dormitories. Even had my own sound proof practise room where i could make noise 24/7. But it would be another year until I started working on next album Dukkha. Just living the musician life. Gigs. Parties. Friends. Lovers. Poetry. Riding the mood rollercoasters and hangovers but wanting more more more.
Oct 03
Summer 2013. Cut off rest of hair. Moved to old town Tallinn. Shared flat with some hipsters my manager knew. The place was really cool until it got too cold in autumn. Would often do photo shoots with people. I enjoy(ed) being captured & photographed. These were taken my Igor Chagin who is still a good friend of mine. I usually never take photos. I capture memories/scenes with poetry. Verbal exhibitionist/voyeur. Non-verbal also…
Oct 03
Met a girl (already a year earlier but it took time to catch us off guard). Fell in love. Mood swings still intense. Had to move away from old town because the apartment was freezing. Months came and went. Played my songs. Walked the streets. Read books. Smoked cigarettes. Made love to my beautiful estonian girlfriend. We watched movies and paused them a million times to make more love out of existing love. Felt jealousy and anger and beauty and joy and life was a wild rush of serpents in spines. Winter was upon us. Was contacted by this music producer guy @rasmuslill who asked if i wanted to collaborate with him and submit a song for eurovision… And so began my next project, The Titles.
Oct 04
Me and Rasmus started messing around with some songs and it was an interesting clssh of styles and egos. He was an electronic hipster nerd and i was a viking blues rock God from struggleville. We submitted our song to the estonian song competition and were chosen to be on the show in early 2014. We also got a band together and started playing our songs live. It was a refreshing departure from what i was used to doing. Also fun to collaborate with new people and not always have to be in charge of everything. I could just focus on singing.
Oct 04
The Titles – Flame (music video)
This is the first song we wrote with Rasmus. In hindsight it is a well produced song but my vocals are terrible and quite embarassing to listen to or see. The lyrics suck too and make no sense. Definitely don’t search for live versions on youtube for this particular song because they are even worse! Don’t do it. Wait. Nooooo…
Oct 05
Made music video for our song (already posted) and then our tv performance (available elsewhere). What a disaster but kind of fun experience because it was new. It was all playback except me and my 70s pants. The song is not in the right key for me and this is clearly not really my thing. Yeah i know, i’m self-criticial. And a little embarassed by this quite frankly. The producers said i have to look at the camers and perform FOR the viewers. I told them all to fuck off and went out of my way to NOT look anywhere they wanted me to. Just wanted to do my stupid clap on the break, maybe throw in an axl rose kick, collect my money and go home to my hot girlfriend and acoustic guitar. I dont play well with others. Something i am working on… I know i know. But that was 2014 and thats how i fucked with shit back then.
Oct 05
We shapeshifted from there and became more a synth rock band combining Rasmus’ fascinating electro tracks with my lyrics/melodies and a sizzling hot live band. Played shows, had good times and cracked pop codes. But i was being pulled more in another direction. Starting to put together my third solo album Dukkha. In hindsight i couldve probably juggled both and Titles was really promising… Something was just not clicking for me. Felt too restricted creatively.
Oct 05
The Titles – Release (live)
We played this on a beach in Tallinn. Finding our style and sound. But i bailed after our last concerts summer 2014. And like often in my life caused a lot of dissapointment and unfulfilled promise and potential. Needed to work on my album and focus. Needed to serve the muse. When she calls for me, I drop everything and kneel down to surrender. Kiss the sky. My songs are the sacrifice she requires and i am rewarded in connection with the source without gatekeepers or middlemen. Part of the deal. I’m an ALL IN kind of guy. I will take you with me if you let me. Deep and wide. Through the echoes. Where the wild flowers grow. Just keep listening and watching and reading. Let me show you. Just take me out of your boxes. Trust in that which gives light and endures burning. Thanks. Sorry.
Oct 06
One of the best photographers i have ever worked with. @reneealtrov
His approach was very unique, meticulous and clearly someone who is pursuing mastery of the craft (which is of course a neverending process). It is always inspiring to be around that kind of energy as a fellow traveller on the creative path. Of course our egos collided a bit, probably more my fault because i can be difficult. Some financial differences where he felt uncompensated for services rendered. There was a misunderstanding i intend to resolve. I really gotta stop being such a cunt. Hopefully i’ve learned my lessons as i am preparing to go back to the city life once again to shine the viking blues gospel on everyone i encounter. And save the world.
Oct 06
Autumn 2014. Had been living in estonia for two years. Life was good. Writing poetry. Singing songs. Finished recording my 3rd album Dukkha during the summer but started having problems with my right hand that started to really limit my abilities which caused me lots of stress and frustration. This bled into everything else i did. It took me 4-5 years to fully recover from what turned out to be focal dystonia (a neurological disorder that causes involuntary muscle movements or contractions in one part of your body).
The gods were testing me. These shots were taken in Saaremaa by my girlffriend. We were starting to think about another life somewhere far far away.
Oct 06
Captured by the queen of stardust herself (also known as Ele) in one of the world’s most magical cafeterias in the heart of Tallinn. As you will see, she caught me behind the masks and roles and revealed a sensitive hurt boy singing his sad songs to those who are maybe a little bit like him. Thank you my sweet love. Forever yours, ♥️ mister grumpster pants
Oct 07
With my new album in post-production and music video about to be released, i got another band together to play some shows. GREAT MUSICIANS like Allan Järve (who also played trumpet on the record). Also exploring looks/vibes/characters as the estonian autumn leaves began to fade. It was 8 years ago. Feels like another life. If only i knew back then what i know now. That logic will never lead to truth. And that communication is the head game while communion is the heart game. I was on a dead end path and learned the hard way which might be the only way for men like me. Stubborn men who refuse to admit defeat even when locked into the jaws of a crazy beast. Never. Give. Up. Next: War cry from the depths in the form of poetry and song.
Oct 07
If i knew this would be my last winter in estonia i would’ve cherished those estonian snowflakes on my tongue like morphine kicking in after losing limbs. but i didnt know anything and still dont. Cold as fuk outside which was the opposite of the way we liked to fuk inside in the sweaty heat of the night and gathering our breaths with cigarettes on the balcony after long hours in restaurants and poetry offices and nude photography looking for vintage clothes and drowned ourselves in each others sorrows and salivas and it worked for 3 years until it didnt and nothing did anymore because love is the greatest threat to ego/identity games. If you wanna open the gate, you gotta take the gloves off. If you wanna walk into the palace, you gotta leave your belongings behind at the gate. All shall be taken care of if only we had the trust. #lovewilltearusapart
Oct 08
Some behind the scenes photo from the tragedy vid. Was putting together another band for tour in early 2015 with album release february. Needed a big band because some of the songs have many instruments. btw, you can listen to the album on all the streaming platforms (its called DUKKHA). Was still struggling with depression and bipolar stuff quite a lot. Felt amazing then like nothing and sometimes at the same time. Just psychological patterns from youth. The psychiatry game is a total scam. There is no underlying mental illness or disease beyond our ego structures. When i understood that, i was free. Humans have problems and everything changes. Deal with it. Accept it. Love it. Move on. Dont get caught into those traps. Study the mystics and poets. We will help you and empower you. Tantra is the supreme understanding. Stay loose and natural. In the flow. Dont force structure. Explore! Dance
Oct 08
Well if it isnt mister grumpster pants HIMSELF back AT iT again. Sharing his silly ol’ photos from the glorious past. Ghosts haunting us until we haunt them. Hallelujah! Praise the Laaaawd almighty! 2014 is long gone. The war is over. Indigo spirits born into a new era of fruit fun in the sun. But for now… Welcome to the dark corners of the internet. Vampire saloon. Step right in. Have some blood wine from your broken dreams. I KNOW WHY YOU ARE HERE. And i can give you exactly what you want and you know only i can. Ahhahahahaahaah… A toast! #evilspirits #indigoadults #90skids #woohoo
Oct 09
Shaved my beard to get ready for album launch in early 2015. This was an aero-dynamic business move. You can listen to it now on spotify or wherever you want. Or buy it on itunes, bandcamp, etc. Or the back of my trunk when my carnival is in your town. DUKKHA. A real rock classic. Won all kinds of awards… dont quote me on that
DUKKHA https://sptfy.com/LNaF
Oct 09
Another little video for dukkha album and my little announcement on tv i forgot to post earlier for tragedy vid. Too bad we didnt have more footage of making the album, string section, trumpet, fiddle, all kinds of cool cats appear on it. Making albums is a great way to learn how to… make albums. Havent quite mastered the artform yet but i’m getting there.
Oct 09
My third solo album Dukkha was released february 2015. My previous albums… Nobody Land (2010) & Lions (2007). You can find them all on spotify, streaming platforms, bandcamp, itunes, etc. If you want CD contact me and i can send. After that i released music under the name Vicevoids which you can also find on those sites.
Oct 10
Dukkha tour 2015 winter with Markus Nylund Band. These photos are from our show in Tartu. I was hired to impersonate Markus and i had my moments. We were gonna tour the whole Earth but since estonia is the top of the food chain in music industry we just toured estonia. Honestly i was not enjoying it at all. My voice felt tired and my hand was fucked. Didnt want to drink smoke or see anyone. Lights and noise felt like knives. And i was sick of these songs. I was sick of music. Something was just wrong with me and i looked in the mirror and said “why cant you just enjoy this”. Repetitive live shows repeating the same songs in the same way has always been a struggle for me. Me and the music industry are like oil and water. Yeah, its a problem. And yeah, i got issues. Or had… Now i am different person. An evolved beast. Or am i? #tartujazzclub #markusnylundband #techsupport #justanothercog #firstworldproblems
Oct 16
Dont really know who this guy is. Some trickster wandering around the sand dunes with his dog and tractor. Better take some photos before the bastard gets away! Suspicion and magic spells were in our presence and the weather was getting colder.
Oct 17
I didn’t choose this path, it chose me. All my life I have been following this calling.. from the gods, the divine muse or whatever you wanna call it. For survival. For sanity. But also for humanity. Soul-dier of Peace in the Army of Love. We are not killing machines. And I am not special, just chosen. Born to create! #illuminated #activated #infiltrated #negotiated #GODMODE #chosen #pathofheart #makelovenotwar Thank you
Oct 17
Secret lives, parallel realities and other fantasies. Are we living in a dreamworld? Is this a simulation? I have no answers or goals, only process, path and mastery. THIS IS IT! There is no rest for the wicked! #dreamworlds #secretlives #findyourselfhere #pastlives
Oct 24
by @davetherake
2017, Helsinki.
#fuckthesystem #wearethesystem
#fucksociety #wearesociety
Oct 24
Flowers Forever #heartshurt
Fina 2006-2017 ♥️
Oct 29
Markus is a character i sometimes like to play. #masks #demons #costumes #makeup #personalities #characters #enneagram8 #enneagram2 #enneagram4 #enneagram9 #enneagram7 #enneagram6 #enneagram3 #enneagram1 #enneagram5
Nov 23
Some thoughts, visuals and poetry from january 2020. Been opening up my archives recently which has been an interesting way to use social media but also relive moments (and organize my own files). Slowly catching up to now, few years left. I used to appear for awhile and then disappear out of frustration. Amateur hour. I still get frustrated sometimes, part of the game but now i might only deactivate social media when i need a break. Some folks wonder if he’s gonna nuke it all again. But i like to surprise them. Good art is full of surprises. Great art transcends all this fun and games. Artists feed on attention and money and love. guess all humans do. Catch ya later. #thoughts #visuals #poetry #jan2020