I am completely burnt out again with my music and everything. Another failed experiment. Dead end. I did my best. I will leave the songs and content up for now but not sure how long or whether it’s even worth the expenses. I spent all my life savings on getting this stuff created and nobody wants to pay for music anymore. Heartbreaking and fucking exhausting. But what can I do. Try to get better I guess. Admit defeat. To succeed you gotta give the market what it wants or find enough people that resonate with what you are doing. Stop being so different and too complicated/confusing or something. Maybe my people are out there but I don’t know how to find them. I feel like the Van Gogh of the modern world. He also died completely unknown and broke. He was a genius but the world was not ready and not everyone likes to go out there and make friends all day. Now his paintings go for 150 million. He is still dead and broke. Maybe humanity will understand my art when I’m long gone lonesome blue. Thanks for those who have supported me. You know who you are. I will never forget it unless I get dementia. See y’all next time I resurface. I am pursuing mastery. Don’t give a fuck about anything else. I have no time for friends or familly. So many fake artists out there and kumbaya snowflake imitation bullshit that gets noticed with paid ads, big social scenes and other media manipulation. No thanks. Fame and glory has to happen organically if it’s meant to be or not at all. Karma will sort it all out in the end when the dust settles and judgement day is upon us. I trust the gods. I serve them, nobody else. Have a nice winter. bye
“Is it just me or is it getting crazier out there?”
Joker