ninja

scroll the feeds
all i see is “look at me”
but i get it
because i am just like you
we all wanna be seen
and i know exactly
how you feel
we go online
even me mister hot shot poet
to find connection
existence is a brutal game
we are all children
who need love and silly faces
who just wanna play video games
eat hot dogs and be kissed good night
you go to the gym
and its the same look
of desperation
and moments of joy
like puppies
looking for their
brothers and sisters
where did they all go
why am i now alone
i am just a cute puppy
life is hard and sad now
when i just wanted to play and be free
but mama will feed me soon
my little puppy eye lids
are getting heavy
and i cry myself to dreams
of puppy love internet memes
wake up and its dark
i’m cold and nobody is here
the years go by
and i learn to forget
about who i was
i become a grumpy old dog
who never wants to go out
i just wanna sleep and die
suddenly i find an eye
and come back to being me
looking at this fucking screen
puppies and sailboats
i wanna be a teenager again
take the girl i have a crush on
to the carnival and be awkward
she is too hot for me
i am a loser and my fly is undone
forgot to change my socks
tell her i love her
and she feels sorry for me
we go to a party and i get drunk
chad the quarterback bangs her
in the basement and i walk home
in the rain and wanna die
again alone with puppy love dreams
so i decide to become
an artist and listen to ramones
one day they will know
who i am and feel my wrath
this lost genius and i will drink
in the afternoon in a pool somewhere
wondering if chad is still alive
fuck me how did this happen
we are all mad and once we fall
off the cliff they will look at us
like we are war vets without legs
our lives will become a cardboard sign
saying i used to be a ninja
need money for a new
hoolahoop