Oh man. Keeps happening. Go to far. Then fall apart.
Then come back. Now again full of light and love.
Apologies my dear brother. Hope you are doing well.
Would still love to meet and make magic.
How? When? Why? Where? With?
Everyone has answers.
I just have more quesions.
Love
Markus
i dont think i can travel now
can only do these kind of conversations
being with people too many hours not good
even the thought of it gives me panic attack
and then i cant sleep or function.
Sorry. I am really fucked up.
And i dont know how to
tell that to people.
So i just pretend
hoping that you
cannot see me.
Need help
will start
therapy
but…
Can the Rapists help me?
LOL
Ok upon further reflection and the sake of the world, I should visit!
So aiming for sept 16-23
something like that
But probably onlfy
few days
take it
from
there
and
see
what
happens.
Also gonna start river dance next week!
hi and good morning
how is your beingness going?
I lost it again. Went berserk.
Keeps happening. Then come back.
Too extreme. Too far. Like a child.
Need to learn. Still learning.
Right now feel beautiful and glorious.
Gonna start documenting on youtube.
Maybe my path can help others?
Love,
Markus
i am learning how to drop doing completely, and just go all in on being
Osho is a master of this with his tantric teachings
it’s a radical idea to jus be and let everything unfold
otherwise we are in this constant cycle of suffering
permanent bliss is possible (i believe)
just have to break the cycle
somehow
I suck
at
It
and i keep forgetting
so i need to come
back home
again and
again
i have a line in one my songs from 2008 when i didnt even understand anything
“there is nothing to know, no one to be
there is nothing to do, its all happening”
(weird that i wrote that kind of stuff back then when i was still mainly obsessed with… well you know)
Hello good sir. Its the captain speaking.
Looking for rides in your inner taxis.
Hope you are well.
Reading osho again.
Book on trantra.
The being.
This world
So obsessed
With the doing
I also
get
lost
in
it
Miss ya brother
Markus
Ps. Can we speak?
Good morning Love. It is mister markus here.
Reporting from finland. Spiritual dungeons.
Found cool inner caves and mountains.
Took rings to mordor and destroyed evils.
Now back in the shire and life is wonderful.
Keep losing selves. Get lost in the egotrips.
Go too far and then need DEEP REST (depressed).
Miss my people. Dont know how to live like this
but also have others around. Want to learn.
Learning as a i go. Insecurity guard.
Maybe you can help. Want to visit.
So we can laugh at this all.
Still want fame and glory to pay bills
And thrills. Ego desires. The doing.
But also to trust the gods. The being.
How is your morning going?
you are a moon flower.
often think of your smile.
reminds me to keep
going.
MN