ALL i ASK

cant you just accept the world
as it is
let her be
the way she was
everyone on their journey
from life to death
trying to make the most of it
who are you to say
that it would be better
if things were different
thank you for being
my voice of reason
but i still dont know
how to let go
so much suffering
i want to save everyone
reveal the lies
we all hide behind
i go through phases
travel and meet people
fall in love and write a million songs
eventually it falls apart
oh how it always falls apart
so beautifully
crucifies me, tortures me
end up at the point of nowhere else to turn
call the suicide hotline
just so i can buy myself some more time
months and years pass
new year eves and birthdays spent alone
dont wanna see anyone
just wanna be on my own
read and write and meditate and practise guitar
write songs and understand
where i went wrong
try to find my voice of reason
what is the meanin’
of all this
then i feel this guilt
because i hurt everyone
i dont know how to be
the person they want me to be
i dont know how to save
the world
or even myself
why cant you just accept the world
as it is
people come and go
like changing seasons
you and your million reasons
remember how we walked and rented movies at the library
you were so sad and beautiful
i just wanted to help you and be good to you
but that wasn’t enough
and somehow i fucked it all up
i’m so fucking sorry
god damn it
who knows
maybe this will somehow reach you
and you will know
how i still care for you
my sweet honey lips
sunflower eyes
remember what i said
be good to you
that’s all i ask.