An email to Tara Springett (spiritual teacher)…
Hi there. I am a 36 year aged musician from Finland. That is my story. But I am not really that person and recently I have had these moments of awakening where I am suddenly in this great ocean and everything is perfect, even my suffering. The feeling is overwhelming and it is as if there is some kind of God speaking in my head. I felt the same when I took MDMA or LSD but I have been without drugs and alcohol for almost 7 months now. I have a 10 year experience with yoga, meditation and all that. I’ve been a dabbler. Although i am on antidepressants… which i started over a month ago.
I want to go deeper. Everything else bores me. This is the highest thing. I just started reading Richard Freeman’s Mirror of Yoga book and I think he gets what I am saying. I also know about Yogani and have all his books but his deep meditation never appealed to me.
I hate doing meditation and yoga asanas. It feels wrong, I don’t know why.
You have a book series. I want to dive in.
Would really appreciate your guidance.
I feel like I am dying. And I am sick and tired of death.
Thank you.