I feel like I have been born again or like I am being born. I am finally awakening. It took me almost 27 years to deeply see who I am and what is really going on around me. I would say that birth is a gradual process. We are not just born in the year so and so. We are constantly born. We constantly also die. Our date of birth/death is an evolving process, not static.
This year will be mostly spent in solitude apart from my music career with Awe, which is the vehicle for my artistic endeavors. I simply do not feel that spending time with other people is a benefit to my well being right now. Of course there will be a time and place for that in the future nor do I undervalue the importance of human relationships in our health, as I’ve previously written.
I have decided to fully commit to the practice of Ashtanga Yoga. It will be the sole form of exercise for me. The practice and philosophy fascinate me greatly and I am completely convinced of its benefits to our growth not just in fitness but spirituality as well. I will try to start every morning with practice and rest on Saturdays as to my understanding is the tradition.
I will also continue my Zen Buddhist path which is also something I have an increasing passion for. I hope practicing both Zen & Yoga will not be a problem. From what I can tell, they seem to be quite congruent with each other on most aspects and may even compliment one another. Of course it is truth that I am ultimately practicing.
I will no longer take any kinds of drugs or stimulants. Nor will I partake in Western Medicine unless it is a last resort. I will enjoy the diet and lifestyle practices of a vegan. I will continue to read books on a variety of subjects be it fiction or non-fiction, to educate myself and understand the world, its history, its people, nature, literature, science and also to continuously keep myself inspired to live fully and to keep growing as a human being.
Finally, I will practice my musical craft as much as possible and hope to finally build a solid external base for my music/artist career which will support me and help me give my love to the world and share my message. So far I have been unable to do this but I know now that these failures have only made me a stronger and better musician and person. I feel I have a contribution to make to this world and I also feel that it is my responsibility to make sure that happens.
Now I must sleep.
(and no I haven’t lost my mind, I have gained it! heheh…)